Not-knowing.

There are days when the most useful thing I can do is hold on to not-knowing.

The scariest thing about my worries is the certainty in them, the sense that these things will happen in just this terrible way…but then they don’t. Something else happens entirely.

A few weeks ago I was here writing about how my resume never gets any response…that night I edited and re-formatted it and applied to a few things and got a call back the next morning from a recruiter, asking for an interview.

See how much I know.

For the moment, there have been no giant, sweet changes in my situation but that doesn’t mean there are none on the way.

I don’t know what’s coming.