“Oreos for breakfast? Seems legit.”
The longer I’ve felt stagnant, the more I’ve looked for
substitutes for genuine good feelings, and my favorite by far has been sugar.
Sugar makes everything alright.
It’s a treat, a consolation, a celebration. It’s nostalgia,
it’s hopefulness for the future, it is everything. It’s the shortest route to an
instant spike in satisfaction.
Candy bars have popped up in my desk drawer at work so that
I can pacify myself through the long afternoons. & when I open that drawer
only to find no more treats inside, I feel antsy until I’ve found a moment to
sneak away & walk to the CVS on the corner for a refill.
Life feels a little lighter from the time I have the package
in hand. Once the familiar crackle of wrapper-opening has begun (typically on
the walk back to work), things are really looking up.
Except, nothing has fundamentally changed. No matter how
much sugar I ply myself with, my reasons for needing consolation have not gone
away. So, it’s time for a fundamental change.
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